welcome.
you have arrived at jayce's house.
will you proceed?
!! NOTE: this experience is best when viewed on laptop or computer. otherwise, expect broken text-chains.
the foyer.
now that you're in my house,
i should probably introduce myself...
hi, my name is Apollyon,
_________________________ in Ancient Greek:
but, i also go by Jayce, Jaybird, Jason, or Camillus (pronounced kaˈmij-lus)
i use he/him pronouns.
majoring in religious studies and classics.
my identity: transmasculine, achillean.
| ENTP | 4w3 | gemini ☼ pisces ☽ cancer ⤉ |
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currently on loop:
other top songs:
ドレス -- BUCK-TICK
Brand New City -- Mitski
Twilight -- bôa
3月5日。-- Plastic Tree
----- find me on chickensmoothie as Prince Apollyon
----------------- or on artfight as camoodle
which room shall we enter next?
the bedroom.
so, you wanted to get to know me more intimately, eh? ;)
you ask, and you shall receive.
what secrets might you uncover here?
x
All that is art & music related
List/explanation of my kins
self-explanatory
the contents of this room reflect it's purpose...
considering that it's where the most time is spent on studies and crafts.
shall you linger?
soft music plays in the background,
switching between several genres the longer you listen.
the dining room.
are you prepared for a feast?
or perhaps... to indulge in lists of my favorite things?
take your seat.
a large table spreads out in front of you. it is fully set with fine china and gold...
...but there is only one guest sitting.
...that guest is you. the other seats will remain empty.
fav movies
Trainspotting
Dead Poets Society
The Princess Bride
Maurice (1987)
Gladiator, aaand also Gladiator II
Monty Python and the Holy Grail
Cabin in the Woods
Star Wars prequel trilogy (EPS. I, II, and III)
Call Me by Your Name
American Psycho
Dune I and II
Jennifer’s Body
The Matrix (all movies, but especially the 1st and 2nd)
Interview With the Vampire
The Shining
...all Quentin Tarantino films, but especially Inglorious Basterds
it is time for the main course.
ghostly platters of meat and fruit float in, one by one, and place themselves along the table.
"take what you please,"
says a mysterious voice, as it whispers to you, beckoning.
fav anime series
Devilman Crybaby
Parasyte
Berserk (but only the manga)
Death Note
Neon Genesis Evangelion
Jojo's Bizarre Adventure
Seraph of the End
Banana Fish
Castlevania
...Dramatical Murder (omg WHO SAID THAT!?)
for more lists, check out my listography:
recommend me more to read/watch:
to get an idea of my favorite things to wear:
stuffed, right as you finally finish eating, the platters mysteriously fill once again, replacing the filling dinner foods with piles of sugary sweets.
"dig in,"
ushers the whispering voice again.
fav books:
Maurice - E. M. Forster
Song of Achilles - Madeline Miller
Iliad & Odyssey - Homer
Lord of the Flies - William Golding
Paradise Lost - Milton
Metamorphoses - Ovid
La Divina Commedia - Dante Alighieri
The Hunchback of Notre Dame - Victor Hugo
Obligatory childhood favs: PJO series & the Warrior Cats series.
other favorites:
TV shows:The Walking Dead, Hannibal, Dexter, Game of Thrones, Breaking Bad, Vampire Diaries
Webcomics:BLOOD BANK, Lookism, Omniscient Reader.
Foods: Gnocchi, yellowtail carpaccio, sushi, beef shabu shabu, anything that can be dipped in ponzu sauce.
Youtubers: RTGames, Slimecicle, Jerma985, Northernlion, Jschlatt, Ted Nivison
Colors: Burgundy red, cobalt blue, cream/off-white, neon green.
Game: FALLOUT: NEW VEGAS!!!!
Artists: Gustave Doré, Roberto Ferri, Michelangelo, Takato Yamamoto
Paintings: Herbert James Draper's "Lament for Icarus", Alexandre Cabanel's "Fallen Angel", Alexandre-Louis Leloir's "Jacob Wrestling with the Angel", William-Adolphe Bouguereau's "Virgil and Dante"
Philosophers: Socrates, Immanuel Kant
Scents: Anything pear scented, old & new books, my cat's fur, that bright pink soap they have in public bathrooms, frankincense incense, Ralph Lauren's Polo 67, and Jo Malone's Wood Sage & Sea Salt.
Plants: Lily of the valley, poison hemlock.
you've eaten more than your fill at this grand feast.
you sigh contently.
you enjoyed yourself thoroughly, but are quite satisfied now that you're done.
______SUDDENLY, _______
just as you think you've finished, the phantom presence reaches out to you once more...
"come!"
it ushers you,
"follow me through the wine cellar door, so that we may indulge ourselves once more..."
will you join us?
the cellar.
* CREEAAAK *
the cellar door opens to reveal a long, winding staircase that descends in a spiral to depths unknown.
bottles of the finest vintage line the walls.
"plenty more awaits,"
the voice reassures you...
...ushering you to continue, and
follow it in.
the cellar.
after traipsing down a seemingly infinite number of stairs, you finally reach the cellar's main stores.
shall you imbibe this drink?
a seemingly infinite number of bottles containing hues of deep red and sparkling white line the walls, filling up every nook and cranny...
...but is it truly wine that they contain?
...or instead, could it be a liquor of sinister nature?
there's only one way to find out, you suppose.
If men were to be likened to wine, then this would be my finest collection.
(basically; this is a list of people & characters I've had unhealthy obsessions and/or simped for.)
THE CREME DE LA CREME, THE BRAINEST OF ROT,
MY POOKIES!! AAURUGH!!
(I am irrevocably in love w them):
Obi-Wan Kenobi, Star Wars prequel trilogy
but also honestly, just Ewan McGregor in general...Benny Gecko, FNV
Vulpes Inculta, FNV
Feyd-Rautha Harkonnen, the Dune movies
Not-inherently-romantic obsessions
(but obsessions nonetheless):
Emperors Geta and Caracalla, Gladiator II
Fellas I've casually lusted for:
Tom Hardy (in Mad Max and Inception)
Henry Cavil (as Geralt of Rivia in The Witcher series)
Jason Mamoa (as Aquaman and Khal Drogo, GoT)
Keanu Reeves
Pedro Pascal (as Prince Oberyn, GoT)
Thranduil, LoTR
Rick Grimes, TWD
Daryl Dixon, TWD
Joaquin Phoenix (as Commodus, Gladiator)
Silco, Arcane
Charlie Slimecicle
Pinhead, Hellraiser...
...And, simultaneously, Fornicus, The Cabin in the Woods
Savage Opress, Star Wars: Clone Wars
Jeff Probst (THE HOST OF SURVIVOR!!?)
Sal from Impractical Jokers 💀
Dio Brando, JJBA
A Visual Representation:
Urmmmm...
In short, I'm so sorry you had to witness this. 😨😟😱
But then again, I said what I said.
And I'm right about it.
So also, you're welcome.😍
"erm, what the sigma?" the disembodied voices grumble,
"that was weird. that was HORRIBLE! AVERT YOUR EYES!!
let's get the heck out of here."
Nothing to see here yet. :(
an in-depth look at my fashion and cosplay pieces
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the study.
you enter, expecting to find a small and stuffy workspace...
...only to find yourself surprised, surrounded by sprawling shelves filled with well-loved books.
an intimidating wooden desk stands center.
you shrink away from it instinctively,
feeling as if your every movement is being watched.
in a small drawer underneath the desk,
you find an open book.
do you investigate?
the necronomicon.
many words have been scrawled upon these bloody pages,
most of who's meaning eludes you.
however, the few phrases you understand begin to illuminate hidden secrets...
the chapter reads as follows:
DEFINITION:
" Kin "
ki
___ a character one associates themselves or identifies with. May help by being a source of comfort, self-expression, etc. One may also share similar problems, trauma, or ideals with the characters they kin.
** please note that i'm not very serious about this!! idc if you kin the same characters bro, this is mostly just a list of characters i relate to and not much deeper than that for me >:3
TOP TIER:
these are characters that i heavily relate to.
the object of my obsession for a period of time.
they just like me fr.
Lucifer, from THE BIBLE
Ryo Asuka - Devilman Crybaby
Shell Overlord - Blood Bank
Griffith - Berserk
Alucard - Castlevania
Lelouch Lamperouge - Code Geass
Ash Lynx - Banana Fish
Aoba Seragaki- Dramatical Murder
The Onceler - The Lorax
Mello - Death Note
4. Griffith - Berserk
playlist - link
similarities:
"Now you belong to me." obsessive and ambitious to the point of self-sabotage. twiiiiinnnss
doesn't realize how good it is until it's gone. doesn't realize how much it mattered and how much he wanted/needed it, as represented with his relationship w guts.
victim of cancel culture</3
no but fr i was SO obsessed with him. i was SO OBSESSED i dyed my hair platinum white and literally believed i WAS griffith for a solid 6 months.
NEVER EXCUSING WHAT HE DID TO CASCA!! ever. but i rationalize it by separating who he was during the golden-age period from who he became after. obviously, being tortured completely wrecked his mind and body. i maintain that that mental decline changed him completely, which i believe was physically represented in his transformation into femto. basically griffith does not equal femto.. brother literally sacrificed his humanity to change arurughjjkdgjKKDSHFK HE'S NOT THE SAME AFTER ALL OF THAAT (so i distinguish them as if they're two completely different and separate characters. for my mental health. bcuz i Cannot Process the eclipse, despite being obsessed with him all the same </3)
5. Alucard - Castlevania
similarities:
initially wanted acceptance from his family, from his dad, so much so that his perceived rejection hurt him so much more and hit so much harder. this is what ended up causing him to break away and oppose his father—that, and he realized that his father was no longer a person he could reason with. still carried the guilt of separating and killing his father, even though he knew it was the right thing to do
heaaavy parental issues. particularly with how the parent he was closer to died first, leaving him alone.
abandonment issues.
pushes away his friends and creates his own worst fear. seen spiraling when his friends left him alone in his mansion. and yet he’s never good at communicating his love to them when they’re with him.
is usually grouchy or complains when he really is happy. acts annoyed when asked how he’s feeling even if he’s enjoying himself. sooo many defense mechanisms
...the twins incident. similar experiences.
betrayed by those he trusts most, again and again. learns not to trust anyone, so he only ends up trusting the wrong person. this pattern is never ending.
is the very thing he despises (by being part vampire).
sees his parents in himself in all the worst ways. tried everything to avoid it, but ends up creating his worst fear by doing so.
6. Lelouch Lamperouge - Code Geass
similarities:
i relate to lelouch primarily for his perfectionistic attitude that causes him to act as if everything is up to him. he believes that he is the only one who can do things right and get perfect results. obsessed with control to his deficit, his brilliance in strategy and logic-based thinking has given him the upper edge on his opponents and caused him to have too much confidence in his abilities. he is too caught up balancing his goals upon his precarious plans and running from his past to actually reflect on his actions. when things inevitably spiral out of control, he only recognizes it when it’s too late to change his ways. saying “the ends justify the means” is just a way for him to keep running past the pain he feels and the guilt he is accumulating from his actions.
family-based trauma. PTSD.
7. Aoba Seragaki - Dramatical Murders
similarities:
i feel like it’s my job to understand exactly what everybody is feeling, what they’ve gone through, and that it’s up to me to help them through it.
passes out frequently when not taking care of myself
cant count (he said that usui has 8 arms but she has 10)
says stuff like “these dang youngsters” and “back in my days” EVEN THOUGH HE’S BARELY 23
has only ever worked odd part-time jobs
very social but also socially anxious and likes to avoid crowds
i feel like i could hurt people so terribly if i made a single mistake. afraid of the responsibility that my high understanding of others weighs because of how easily i could hurt the people that trust me if i were to misstep.
TERRIBLE at waking up but hates getting teased for it
always mistaken for being a girl
collects people?? like he finds the coolest people and somehow starts a friend group, even tho they’re all SO weird and never would’ve met otherwise
i aspire to have a harem of ppl in love with me like he does
interactive dreams
the necronomicon.
the chapter reads as follows:
HIGH TIER:
i relate to nearly everything about these characters,
but may not feel about them as strongly as i do about
the characters in TOP TIER.
Icarus, from Greek Mythology
Howl Pendragon - Howl's Moving Castle
Percy Jackson
Jerma985... not in a weird way i SWEAR i'm just very jerma-coded
Patroclus - Song of Achilles
Achilles - Song of Achilles
Mary - Downton Abbey
Apollo, the Greek God
Jack Twist - Brokeback Mountain
Charlie Dalton - The Dead Poets Society
Odysseus - Homer's Odyssey
THE male ENTP 16P AVATAR
Colin Grey - Jennifer's Body
Kazutora - Tokyo Revengers
Mikaela Hyakyua - Seraph of the End
Tasir - Men of the Harem
James - Pokemon
Socrates, the Greek philosopher
Rainbow Dash - MLP
Leonardo Da Vinci (don't worry about it)
Kaeya - Genshin Impact
the necronomicon.
the chapter reads as follows:
MID TIER:
relate to these characters a lot,
but with a few key differences.
Damon - The Vampire Diaries
Wesley - The Princess Bride
Hitoshi-san - Nyan Neko Sugar Girls
Neil - Mysterious Skin
Chris McLean - Total Drama Island
Vampire cookie - Cookie Run Kingdom
Part 2&3 Joseph Jostar - JJBA
Rin - but specifically from the Free!! Iwatobi Swim Club spinoff, 50% off
Simon - Lord of the Flies
Lotor - Voltron
Grey - Fairy Tail
JD - Heathers
Sokka - ATLA
Venti - Genshin Impact
Klaus Hargreeves - The Umbrella Academy
Roderick - Diary of a Whimpy Kid Movie
Kurro - Haikyuu!
Denki Kaminari - MHA
Shinji - Neon Genesis Evangelion
Misato - Neon Genesis Evangelion
Draco Malfoy - Harry Potter
Bokuto - Haikyuu!
Oikawa - Haikyuu!
the necronomicon.
the chapter reads as follows:
LOW TIER:
i can come up with a few good reasons
as to why i relate to these characters,
but mostly kin them based on vibes.
or, people have told me i'm like them. take your pick.
Koujaku - Dramatical Murder
Chrollo - HXH
Jim - Treasure Planet
Gumball Cookie - Cookie Run Kingdom
Legolas - LOTR
Saul Goodman - Breaking Bad
you have reached the last page,
and exhausted all the knowledge this book has to offer.
do you wish to leave?
jayce's wishlist
can't decide on a gift? let me help!
perhaps a birthday or holiday is quickly approaching?
alternatively, maybe you're just feeling generous and wanted to treat me to a gift?
either way, you've come to the right place!
fav stores:
stores i frequently shop at.
usually, you can't go wrong buying me anything from here!
my measurements:
SHOES:
women's 9.5-10, men's 8-9.
size up if half-sizes are unavailable
TOPS:
bust: 35.5 in/90 cm
waist: 26in/66 cm
Hips: 35.5in/90cm
RINGS:
6 for ring finger
7 for index, middle, and thumb
5 for pinky
HEIGHT:
5’6"/170cm
DRESSES:
4, can also fit 2-6
PANTS/JEANS:
28-30 waist,
38 in/96 cm length
jewelry
OHT NCY - super cool, androgynous necklaces! on the pricier side
Chrome Hearts - incredibly cool designer rings and necklaces.
Hard Jewelry - stainless steel masculine jewelry. love their items with religious motifs!
Raspberry Mazohyst - dream chokers
eBay - i collect vintage rosaries!! a great place to find those is here. i'm particularly fond of unique and intricate designs
Vivienne Westwood - waaay too expensive. but i love the designs, so buy dupes!
clothing
Affliction - 90s/2000s skater grunge band. a great go-to for any type of clothes. (check out eBay for their "sinful" line of bikinis and vintage shirts!)
TRIPP NYC - the best pants EVER
thoughtwefriends - dream pants. designer expensive, but sooo cool
Wunderwelt - authentic lolita fashion from top japanese name-brands
Moi-même-Moitié DREAM CLOTHES! designed by mana-sama from the band malice mizer, i dream about one day owning enough items to create an outfit solely wearing clothes from this brand
Moi-même-Moitié - USED - same brand as above, but used, cheaper, or out-of-stock items!
Devil Inspired - takes a while to ship, but the best place to buy alternative or lolita-style clothes and accessories!
Lip Service - love their PVC looks!
shoes
general
Hot Topic - emo band t's, usually decent alt accessories and fashion items
Spencer's - good alt accessories and jewelry
Spirit Halloween - decor, jewelry, and clothing
general designs/motifs i'll always like:
anything pertaining to religious imagery! particularly crosses, angels, fallen angels
anything reminiscent of a wealthy noble vampire from the victorian era
ouji, a subset of lolita/j-fashion
emo, scene, or trad-goth clothing!
monochrome black techwear
GARFIELD
STUFF RELATED TO GREEK MYTHOLOGY OR ANCIENT ROME (YES, that means you should buy me a historically accurate toga, full set of armor, and jewelry made out of authentic ancient coins PLEAAAASEEEEE)
COLORS: black, red (all shades), cobalt blue, monochrome white, off-white, neon blue and green, silver.
the studio
...or dessert.
(pssst... this page is still a WIP)
"damn bro you're not even full yet?!" the voices exclaim.
* GASP! *
"OMG who said that??! awkward... must've been the wind."
"have some dessert, i guess..."
feast your eyes (and ears)!
TOP GENRES:
melancholia, alt rock, 80s new/dark wave, goth rock,
nu metal, indie, grunge, dreampop, art pop,
2010's emo/pop-punk, hyperpop, 90s-2010's pop.
FAVORITE SONGS
BUCK-TICK
Malice Mizer
DIR EN GREY.
MUCC
Plastic Tree
The Greatest of All Time:
alt-rock: top bands
Radiohead
The Strokes
Nirvana
Arctic Monkeys
Nothing But Thieves
visual kei: top bands
BUCK-TICK
Malice Mizer
DIR EN GREY.
MUCC
Plastic Tree
I'm gonna put lists of my fav bands n songs here,
a link to my art accounts,
collection/collage of my art,
and detailed account of all my favorite artists.
the end.
you have reached the end.
hopefully, whatever insight you were searching for
was found in this humble abode.
"CAW!"
a gust of wind rushes past.
it carries the voices' whispers.
they are sad to see you go.